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Barack Obama 44th US United States President Round Glass Christmas Ornament. Show your pride that hope is alive in America with this commemorative holiday ornament great to display all year long!

:  Makes an excellent gift
Company: Tops 
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With an attractive glass measuring plate and compact size, this electronic kitchen scale blends functionality with style. The Toughened 5MM Hygienic tempered glass platform is resistant to staining and easy for cleaning. One lithium battery powers the electronic scale with a low battery indicator, automatic zero, and automatic shutdown. For measurement with bowls or other containers, users need only place the empty container on the scale and press the power button to set the measurement at zero for isolated ingredient weights. The scale measures quantities up to 11 pounds or five kilograms. Equipped with a high precision strain gauge sensor system. 5mm tempered glass surface. 54×20mm LCD display. Auto zero resetting / power off. Low power / Over-load indicator. Tare function. G/Oz convertible. Color: Silver Gold with round glass. Power : 1×3V CR2032 lithium battery (included).

Health and Beauty:  Equipped with a high precision strain gauge sensor system, 5mm tempered glass surface; 54×20mm LCD display, Capacity: 5 Kg/1G; CE & RoHS approved, Auto zero resetting / power off, Tare function: subtracts the container's weight to obtain the wt of its contents
Company: NewLine 
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Now you don't have to be a major league pitcher to give your dog a healthy workout. The Chuckit! from Canine Hardware is the perfect back-saving ball-throwing tool. After ten or twenty practice throws, you'll have your dog retrieving tennis balls from 100 to 140 feet away. The catapult-like device is designed to scoop up tennis balls without forcing you to bend down. It's great for the park, the backyard or any other open space.

Misc.:  Outstanding exercise for your dog!, Quick learning curve--you'll master the Chuckit! within your first ten or twenty tosses, Measures 26 in. long, Makes a great gift for any dog or canine owner
Company: Canine Hardware 
List Price: $12.00
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In their 2008 musical masterpiece, the Gaither Vocal Band captures the wonder and beauty of Christmas as never before in this breathtaking recording of Christmas classics. Featuring smooth, intricate harmonies, majestic orchestration and songs that transport us to the heart of Christmas, the Gaither Vocal Band finally releases the ideal CD to enhance any celebration. This release is sure to calm the shop-weary, soothe the frenzied and ignite hope in anyone.

Atists:  Gaither Vocal Band
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Company: Spring House / EMI  (2008-09-30)
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Based on Nicholas Sparks' novel, director Nick Cassavetes film spins the bittersweet tale of a 60-year romance, as seen from the polar perspectives of its promising youth and the travails of an old age cursed by Alzheimer's. Its soundtrack effectively echoes those polar dramatic concerns, with composer Aaron Zigler's gentle orchestral score largely giving voice to the character's melancholy present, while a rich, well-chosen slate of vintage material by Billie Holiday, Duke Ellington, Benny Goodman and Glenn Miller imparts a restless energy to their youth. There's a certain schmaltz to much of Zigman's work here, yet cues like "House Blues/The Porch Dance.." and "Noah's Journey" argue he's achieved something more elusive than mere melodramatic wallpaper with the deceivingly difficult task at hand; it can't be easy to have your work seasoned with the likes of Ellington's sassy "Alabamy Home" and Goodman's still-vibrant "One O'Clock Jump." Sharply contrasting versions of "I'll Be Seeing You" by Holiday and Jimmy Durante bookend the soundtrack, perfectly evoking the story's alternating shades of hope and fading nostalgia and framing Zigman's understated work in the bargain. --Jerry McCulley

Atists:  Various Artists
Audio CD:  Soundtrack
Company: New Line Records  (2004-06-08)
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Atists:  Mark Lowry
Audio CD:  Enhanced
Company: Spring House / EMI  (2004-10-19)
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The loss of a loved one is never easy and memories often make the holiday season especially difficult. Addie (Lisa Lucas) lost her mother when she was very young and, while she sometimes yearns for her mother, she is a happy well-adjusted ten-year old who wants nothing more than to have a Christmas tree in the living room. Addie's father (Jason Robards) absolutely refuses to have a Christmas tree in the house, but offers no explanation for his stubborn resolve which leads Addie to question his motives and his love for her. It falls to Addie's Grandmother (Mildred Natwick) to explain that her father is still immersed in grief over the loss of his wife and that the memories of Christmases past are simply too painful for him to endure. When Addie wins a tree at school, her father is enraged by both the presence of the tree in his home and the idea of his family accepting charity. Only by opening a line of communication and sharing their feelings and memories with one another can Addie and her father reconcile their differences and begin to understand one another. Set in 1964, this 1972 made-for-television special feels like a stage play with sets and scenery that evoke the essence of an age-gone-by. The message, of course, is timeless. (Ages 5 and older) --Tami Horiuchi

Director:  Paul Bogart
VHS Tape:  Closed-captioned, Color, Original recording reissued, NTSC
Company: Paramount  (2001-09-25)
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Though promoted as a "full length holiday movie," this is more of a TV Christmas special spinoff from Disney's new series, House of Mouse. The premise is something like an animated Muppet Show: Mickey, Goofy, and Donald run a nightclub for an audience of Disney characters, with plenty of songs, skits, and cartoons. There's not much story to this holiday special--Mickey whips up an impromptu party for stranded guests and instills a "Humbug"-quacking Donald with the holiday spirit--but it's full of sight gags and comic bits with dozens of Disney characters, from Ludwig von Duck to Pumba and Timmon. The special begins with the short Pluto's Christmas Tree and ends with the entire 1983 short film Mickey's Christmas Carol. However, the highlight is a comic retelling of The Nutcracker with Donald as a reluctant Mouse King (complete with phony Mickey Mouse ears) and John Cleese as the exasperated narrator. The special is utterly unmemorable as a whole, but nonetheless bright, light, and cute and sure to keep the attentions of young tots. --Sean Axmaker

Director:  Burny Mattinson, Jack Hannah
VHS Tape:  Animated, Closed-captioned, Color, Dolby, NTSC
Company: Walt Disney Home Video  (2001-11-06)
ISBN: 0788829513
List Price: $22.99
Amazon Price: $8.37
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VHS Tape:  Color, NTSC
Company: Spring House / EMI  (2000-11-07)
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Add a warm and fun glow to your little girls bedroom with this fascinating Tinkerbell Motion Lamp. It's printed with fun graphics of Tinkerbell all over it!

:  Tinkerbell Motion Lamp, Room décor, Spinning light with the bulb included, Indoor use only, Perfect room décor addition to any little girls bedroom
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Holiday Homes sells Modular Homes and Manufactured Homes in the Ohio, Indiana, and Kentucky. ... Modular Home Sales; Site Built Home Sales; Manufactured Home Sales; Pre-Owned Home ... (more...)

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Holiday House Books for Young People ... Welcome to the Holiday House website . . . Be sure to check out our new and holiday titles! (more...)

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For over 50 years Holiday House has given vacationers the option of custom-made, a la carte travel with an unmatched range of choice, value and flexibility. (more...)

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NZ and Australia holiday homes. new zealand vacation and holiday homes - accommodation around New Zealand - an online directory of NZ self catering holiday homes, houses, baches ... (more...)

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Over 4,000 OCS, Water and Vending supplies from more than 23 top name brands. We stock supplies for coffee machine parts as well as espresso machines and countless other ... (more...)

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your premier site for Vacation and Holiday Homes, Beach Houses, Villa Rentals world-wide including Florida, California, Mexico and Europe. Beach Houses in the Caribbean and Hawaii ... (more...)

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Residence a Milano con appartamenti e mini appartamenti. Holiday Homes Residence P.IVA 11382210158 - all rights reserved (more...)

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Why am I so obsessed with the past? Like over the holidays I was bi***ing about a GF that dumped me in highschool, and my friend couldn't even remember who I was talking about. Is 2003 really that long ago? Or the last time I talked to my dad: He threw me out of the house (over the phone) right before I had to work a 12 hour shift. I slept in a park that night. 2006. I remember it like it was yesterday, but nobody else seems to. Or the one time I dumped a GF, I felt so terrible because she was crying. Everybody says she's over it, but I still haven't forgiven myself. 2004. Is my brain stuck on bad moments so I can't see any good ones? (more...)

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I'm an 18 year old boy and for the last two to three years me and this girl I've been friends with have both felt very strongly about one another. She knew I liked her and I knew she liked me but we were both afraid to make a move as neither of us had either had a relationship before and we are both shy. Anyway, the other day I couldn't handle this anymore. I had to tell how I felt. I thought I'll either end up having a relationship with her or if she says no I'll be able to clear my head eventually. I asked her to come over to my house, I told her exactly how I felt and she said she had felt the exact same way too and said she wanted to be my girlfriend. It turned out that we really let all our feelings spill out and it led to sex. I never planned on this happening but we've known each other for years so it wasn't a problem. We both lost our virginity and even though it was our first time it really was genuine love we expressed to one another. Anyway, she went on holiday the day after this happened so we haven't been able to discuss anything and she won't be back for a few days. So how do we approach our relationship now? Thanks (more...)

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I have the Sims 1 installed on my PC and I have 4 expansion packs (Holiday, house party, unleased and hot date) When I insert the unleashed disk into my pc in order to play the game a error code comes up. I have tried all the other sims disc's that I have got installed on my pc and all it says is 'please insert the correct disk' and when I insert the unleashed disc it says error: A newever version of the sims has been detected on this machine, please reinstall the latest version' Somebody please help me :( (more...)

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Okay well I asked a question before about getting my daughter a puppy for christmas, due to factors brought to my attention about why that time of year could be problematic, we waited until after the holidays. My daughter has been told about getting a pet and is thrilled. Anyway- my husband asked me to go ahead and pick out the puppy and so I looked in the paper, considering our price range etc. and didn't find any that would be suitable for our home. (We're looking to get a small to medium breed dog) so I decided to go to the local animal shelter with my daughter. Together we looked at a variety of dogs and found the most lovable (slightly timid but still approachable) beagle. Her name is Maggie and she's three years old. My daughter immediately fell in love with her. I called my husband and explained the situation, he immediately said no way. He says that shelter dogs have too much baggage and that I'm not thinking of my daughter, who's five and will definitely want a puppy not a full grown dog. I explained to him that she really liked Maggie and he didn't buy it. I told him that she was house trained and that she'd be a great addition to our family. He got frustrated, told me to do whatever I wanted, and hung up. I knew he'd be irritated with me and have hard feelings if I brought the dog home so I asked the woman at the shelter to *please* hold her I would be back. I came home and we talked it out. He says whatever I decide is fine because he realizes my daughter really does like Maggie, but he's still upset. How would you have reacted to this? Do you think it'd be okay for me to adopt Maggie? Okay thanks for all the answers. Here's some of my own. My daughter is five years old, yes I've decided to let my husband come meet Maggie and he's agreed because my daughter was practically begging him and he felt horrible. Anyway, um...Maggie is timid and probably has abandonment issues considering her owners have her up when she became full grown. (No real reason was specified when they dropped her off.) So aside from possible future seperation anxiety problems I don't think there's anything else wrong. (more...)

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A couple of days ago my best friend slept over at my house, we hadn?t seen each other in while, since I was away. The last day that we spent together before I left to go on holiday was one of the best days of my life. So she came over and we went to the movies together, after the movies she became extremely quiet. The next day, she was extremely quiet again, I asked her if something was wrong, b/c my gut was telling me something was wrong and I?m usually right about such things. All she ever said was that she was not being quiet and that nothing wrong. The sleepover was a disaster. The next day I asked her to promise me that nothing was wrong, b/c this was really eating at me, we were talking on IM. She continually laughed at everything I said, which heavily offended me, she was rude and cocky in everything that she said. She kept saying that everything was coming out wrong. She eventually told me that she was sad b/c her grandfather had, had a heart attack. I told her that she should have told me, she argued that she can?t bring such things randomly to the conversation. I told her she could as this is what best friends do. Then the night after that I got like a rage attack b/c I was so paranoid that she was going to be like that all the time, and she and I had a talk again. I told her she shouldn?t have talked to me like that. Three minutes after the fight she said goodbye so casually that I started to cry b/c I felt so incredibly abandoned by her. Now I?m avoiding her and I am still so scared that she is going to be cocky and rude and laugh in my face all the time, and she?s pretending like nothing is wrong, which is pissing me off anymore. She and I have been through so much together and we tell each other everything, but I just cannot get over this. What should I do? (more...)

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This is kinda long, sorry. okay so in like october I choose my best friend who is REALLY smart and nice at first for 4 years to be my science fair partner. First we were gonna do our project on this REALLY fun one and then she changed her mind to a boring one without my approval. she said it would give us a "better mark". Then she change it again, just because there was a book on it with lots of info about GRASSHOPPERS now would you really like to be with a grasshopper during ur whole science project, i wouldn't. so now wre doing it on grass hoppers, but then that night we though of the idea, well she thought of the idea i told myself that i'm not gonna be okay with this project for 4 months. so i called her and said im not her project partner anymore. she got really sad, but she got over it. so my final decision came to this really fun one about cookie sheets. well i though it was really fun. the next day my teacher changed my bffs project question because it didnt make much sense. She didnt like the changed version, and wanted another topic. But it was too late to do that and the only option is to be someone elses partner, ME. I got happy that she got to be my partner and i thought it was the greatest thing that happened with us, until i realized it was the worst. after was the holidays. I worked on every single step on my science fair project, adn asked her 5 TIMES to come to my house to work on it, but it was always a "no, maybe next week!" and i thought she was smart. so finally she came and we did all out stuff. I made the design for our board and she okayed it. The next day was school. And she wrote out all the information, saying that my "wasnt good enoguh and we need to start all over" Countless hours of work, not enjoying my holiday was a waste. she doesn't even CARE about what i think. If i don't like something in the project which i want her to change, she will said No were not doing that were doing THAT thing which i thought of. everything was done all by her except the bristol board..not. I bought the project science fair board with my 16 dollars. Untill she came up and wrekced the whole thing using boring colours and boring things. Before, we did this super cool design until she tore it off thinking it "wasnt scientific". I said "no, i payed for the materials and board ($30) and now ur saying its not good?!" she said who cares it looks so ugly, btw ur house was soo boring!okay nvm nvm" i felt so sad that my bfff was doing this to me. So were basically done the project and her bossyness. I honestlly dont care what mark we get, aslong as we did it together, but she cared more about getting an A then my feelings. So gues what happened next? SHE RIPED EVERYTHING OF WHAT SHE DID ON MY BOARD!! She said it wasnt colourful(wth?!) and we have to start, Over. my 16 dollars went to waste...my dad liked the board i designed he even took a picture of it. Now my friend is being so bossy and creul! Now our board is "yellow,green,purple,and blue" those are so ugly colours together! I can't take it anymore!what do I do!! please don't say "oh i don't understand ur question" coz simple don't answer it! sorry this was long, thanx<3 so basically my question is that I can't stand the bossyness of my friend caring more about the project then my feelings. what do I tell her (more...)

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Its two questions really: Sorry so long here is the situation First of all she hasn't been making the most rational decisions but she is still very self suffient and we just look in on her (as do the other family members) Also she has always been real scatterbrained......we are also wondering when you feel the best time to suggest a retirement community or assisted living.....we worry about her living on her own in that apartment (though she thinks its great its not the best area of town anymore but she hasn't seen how its gone downhill).....but we are worried with her forgetfulness and her heart. She will not be living with us though I can't take that......there would be too much fighting and we don't have room, our extra room is set aside to be the nursery. So when do you feel the best time is to suggest that we just don't like her being alone and so far away from the family And for the other issue the wierd issue: But this has to do with her emotional state My husbands 70 year old grandmother (who raised him) who is really young acting for her age, who lost her husband 2 years ago and is very lonely. Decided enough was enough so she set her sights on finding an old high school boyfriend. Well she found him and they started writing back and forth and he came to town to visit some relatives and stopped in to see her for a few days. He is a little older than her and in okay health but she wanted to be more than friends and he made it real clear he didn't appreciate her advancements and just wanted to be friends (He never married) Well he mentioned once the possiblity of her going out to visit so she called him up and said she was coming out for christmas (well first of all you don't invite yourself to someone house) and he said no (she did this because we were leaving town) Well he sent her a gift over the holidays and she wants to tell him that he really hurt her....but feel she never should have set her sights on him like that in the first place and should have accepted when he clearly told her that he just wanted to be friends. The worst part is she is coming to my husband (her grandson, well son for all intensive purposes) and asking advice on her love life Well my husband has some issues with that...because his grandfather was completely devoted to her and would as soon die than move on if she had passed first. I told her to thank him for the gift and not burn bridges. He wants to be her friend and that is what she needs right now....not a boyfriend but a friend. But she is lonely and stubborn. How can I help my husband cope with her right now and the wierdness and how can I help her understand that it makes my husband uncomfortable and that she needs to slow down and not drive this guy away or any guy. What advice would you have given? I know she is just lonely but its hard for my husband by the way she is his adopted mother (more...)

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i know this may get me bashed, but i guess i just want some help/advice. my child's father just got married, his wife just had thier baby on the 2nd, and im due in april with his kid too. long story short she knows about me and the baby, so thats not the issue. the issue is THIS. he married her b/c he is one of those people who didn't want to have a kid out of wedlock. she was his friends with benefits deal, and ended up getting pregnant. she threatened to take thier kid and "disappear" if he didn't marry her and he's one of those men who REALLY want to have kids, so that was a f*cked ultimatum. We didn't find out i was pregnant until a week AFTER they got married. i was dating him and she knew it the whole time so its not like we was sneaking around cuz they weren't together until she threatened him with the ultimatum. me and him known each other about 4-5 years, never been physical till about june last year. thing is this. we fell in love. like SERIOUSLY. he even told his WIFE that he was in love with me not her but staying with her cuz of thier kid (before we knew i was pregnant too). i know this cuz i was there when they had the convo. anyway, as much as people say he couldnt love me cuz he married her, i think circumstances made him marry her cuz he felt obligation to her and he didn't feel he had any other choice. i have spoken with him and he still tells me he is in love with me, but he doesn't believe in divorce cuz he scared she will take thier kid away. i don't know waht to do. i know i need to stop feeling love for him cuz he will never be mine, but thier relationship is so bad that i feel like i should try to hold out and see if eventually they will come to thier senses and get a divorce. me and him havent done anything physical since they got married, but in this case the emotional adultery is just as bad. i mean he joined the army, and came back this holiday to see her and me and when he was over my house (so i could give him an ultrasound) he started crying and said he wished he could go AWOL and be with me. i know its not possible cuz his wife would probably make our lives HELL, so at this point i cant dwell on what could be. i just feel really sad about what has happened. i feel like i lost the love of my life. any advice from anyone? i know actions speak louder than words, but that is sort of part of the problem too, cuz he goes out of his way to do things for me, like he came to see me everyday he was here on leave, called me from boot camp (he's not even spose to have a phone), just the things he does makes me feel that he DOES love me, and not running game. he hasnt tried to have sex with me or anything.. im not trying to make excuses. i know that this situation is F*CKED, but i just feel so conflicted and sad. let me repeat again. me and him aren't having sex. we know that would be bad, but i know that emotional cheating is probably just as bad... (more...)

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This is my English homework. Please keep in mind that I am only thirteen years old, so I don't have advanced standards like some of you might. So, just tell me if you think it's Okay, and constructive criticism is welcome. Dear Diary, Today was the same. I told Jasmine that it would be Okay. That everything will all work itself out and go back to how it was before. But I know she doesn?t believe it. I don?t either. I wish I could do more for her. She?s my little sister and everytime I look into her eyes, I can see the pain she?s suffering from all the arguing and shouting. I just want her to be happy. Like all the other kids in her class. The other day, she asked me if I was Okay. I took a moment answering her. Was I Okay? Was I, really? No. No, I wasn?t. But I can?t make things worse for her. I just smiled and said yes, Of Course I was Okay. I don?t like lying to her, but these days, it seems to be necessary. My friends have sensed a difference in me, a hollow emptiness, and they?ve asked me if anything was a matter. I?ve told them not to worry, that everything was fine and I was just tired. Only Jasmine knows the truth. Sometimes I wish I could just fly away. When I was little, I used to have this box. On it was painted rainbows and birds, butterflies and magic wands. When I was angry with my mum or my dad, I would sit in my box and close my eyes, and pretend to fly away to a place where nobody except me could go, where no one could hurt me. But I?m not a little girl anymore and I can?t pretend. Everyday, my parents fight about something different. And when they?re not shouting at eachother, a cold silence fills the house. Mum screamed at Dad that their marriage was a mistake. Does that mean I?m a mistake? That I?m not supposed to be here? Dad hates Mum. He said so. He said that he was stupid to have ever gotten involved with a woman like her. But I?m part of my mum. And I?m part of my Dad. Does that mean that they hate me? I usually rely on my iPod to get me through the day when they fight. I can play my songs. At least the words to the songs are predictable; I know what?s going to be sung and when the song?s going to finish. But when my mum and dad start fighting, you don?t know what harsh remarks they?ll throw at eachother and you certainly don?t know when they?ll stop. Why can?t they stop? My friends are always complaining that they hate their parents. That their parents have grounded them because they were late home or hit their little brother or sister. I would gladly swap with them. If I was late home, my mum wouldn?t ground me because she wouldn?t have noticed that I was ever gone. And I would certainly never hit Jasmine. Why can?t I do more for Jasmine? I?m supposed to protect her, but I?m not doing that much of a good job. If it were a dream, mum, dad, Jasmine and I would all be a happy family. Dad would come home from work and smile at mum and give her a kiss on the cheek while I?m doing my homework at the table and Jas is watching telly. We would go on exotic holidays like Greece and Spain, France and Italy. I would come home from my friend?s house to a Sunday roast where everyone is laughing and chatting happily. If it were a dream mum would be washing the dishes and singing while I told her about my day at school. If it were a dream. Please tell me what you think! By the way, the homework was that we had to make a diary entry of conflict, of how a child might feel if their parents were constantly fighting. (more...)

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This is my English homework. Please keep in mind that I am only thirteen years old, so I don't have advanced standards like some of you might. So, just tell me if you think it's Okay, and constructive criticism is welcome. Dear Diary, Today was the same. I told Jasmine that it would be Okay. That everything will all work itself out and go back to how it was before. But I know she doesn?t believe it. I don?t either. I wish I could do more for her. She?s my little sister and everytime I look into her eyes, I can see the pain she?s suffering from all the arguing and shouting. I just want her to be happy. Like all the other kids in her class. The other day, she asked me if I was Okay. I took a moment answering her. Was I Okay? Was I, really? No. No, I wasn?t. But I can?t make things worse for her. I just smiled and said yes, Of Course I was Okay. I don?t like lying to her, but these days, it seems to be necessary. My friends have sensed a difference in me, a hollow emptiness, and they?ve asked me if anything was a matter. I?ve told them not to worry, that everything was fine and I was just tired. Only Jasmine knows the truth. Sometimes I wish I could just fly away. When I was little, I used to have this box. On it was painted rainbows and birds, butterflies and magic wands. When I was angry with my mum or my dad, I would sit in my box and close my eyes, and pretend to fly away to a place where nobody except me could go, where no one could hurt me. But I?m not a little girl anymore and I can?t pretend. Everyday, my parents fight about something different. And when they?re not shouting at eachother, a cold silence fills the house. Mum screamed at Dad that their marriage was a mistake. Does that mean I?m a mistake? That I?m not supposed to be here? Dad hates Mum. He said so. He said that he was stupid to have ever gotten involved with a woman like her. But I?m part of my mum. And I?m part of my Dad. Does that mean that they hate me? I usually rely on my iPod to get me through the day when they fight. I can play my songs. At least the words to the songs are predictable; I know what?s going to be sung and when the song?s going to finish. But when my mum and dad start fighting, you don?t know what harsh remarks they?ll throw at eachother and you certainly don?t know when they?ll stop. Why can?t they stop? My friends are always complaining that they hate their parents. That their parents have grounded them because they were late home or hit their little brother or sister. I would gladly swap with them. If I was late home, my mum wouldn?t ground me because she wouldn?t have noticed that I was ever gone. And I would certainly never hit Jasmine. Why can?t I do more for Jasmine? I?m supposed to protect her, but I?m not doing that much of a good job. If it were a dream, mum, dad, Jasmine and I would all be a happy family. Dad would come home from work and smile at mum and give her a kiss on the cheek while I?m doing my homework at the table and Jas is watching telly. We would go on exotic holidays like Greece and Spain, France and Italy. I would come home from my friend?s house to a Sunday roast where everyone is laughing and chatting happily. If it were a dream mum would be washing the dishes and singing while I told her about my day at school. If it were a dream. Please tell me what you think! By the way, the homework was that we had to make a diary entry of conflict, of how a child might feel if their parents were constantly fighting. Right, just so you know: No, my parents aren't abusive, I actually have quite a good relationship with them. I just find it really easy to put myself into other people's shoes, and think their way of thinking. Just to let you know, in England we spell mum like 'mum', not 'mom', like the way Americans do. (more...)

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